Christmas

It's 19.50 on Christmas Eve, and I don't feel very festive. My husband has 'forgotten' to buy the Xmas tree, and it feels as if my whole existence has been called into question. Today he has walked the dogs, gone to the gym an then walked the dogs again at lunchtime, with no regard to what day it is. I go out to buy a 21st present for a friend's son, and I come back to an empty, uncleaned house - he is walking the dogs again. I wouldn't mind so much about the tree, but it is as if Xmas just happens by magic - and all my hard work over the past 30 years has been for nothing. I feel so empty inside...